This just about defines my life right now.
Monday, October 20, 2008
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Happy (belated) Birthday Will!
I am finally getting around to commemorating Will's 1st birthday. Happy Birthday Will (9/18/07). He started out as such a tiny little thing with an amazing pair of lungs. He was an excellent eater, and very alert. He loved to catnap and was very serious. He didn't smile a lot and took a while to laugh.
Now, Will is a huge bundle of energy. He is still very alert and watches everything. He is an excellent sleeper and will eat anything (except cake). He is not afraid of anything and loves anything new. He loves to climb and move and be thrown around. He has such an adventurous spirit but at the same time he can be very easy going. He laughs easily and loves people. I love his rainbow of personality.
Thank you God for such an amazing little boy that You created perfect for our family. Bless him and help us raise him to love You and worship You in all he does.
Now, Will is a huge bundle of energy. He is still very alert and watches everything. He is an excellent sleeper and will eat anything (except cake). He is not afraid of anything and loves anything new. He loves to climb and move and be thrown around. He has such an adventurous spirit but at the same time he can be very easy going. He laughs easily and loves people. I love his rainbow of personality.
Thank you God for such an amazing little boy that You created perfect for our family. Bless him and help us raise him to love You and worship You in all he does.
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Just a bunch of pictures
Lots of life happening so I'm just going to post a few pictures with a little detail. The entertainment value should be enough by themselves :D
While I was at my parent's house dealing with flooding, Krista and Will were playing in the rain!
Taking a nap in our bed with his favorite blanket.
It's not often that he catches our cat (Dora), but when he does - he hangs on and absolutely loves it.
Krista was feeling deprived about not hvaing enough pictures of her and Will, so they took some!
We had stuffed green peppers for dinner tonight - and since the peppers were willing to tell him all their secrets, he went to town!
While I was at my parent's house dealing with flooding, Krista and Will were playing in the rain!
Taking a nap in our bed with his favorite blanket.
It's not often that he catches our cat (Dora), but when he does - he hangs on and absolutely loves it.
Krista was feeling deprived about not hvaing enough pictures of her and Will, so they took some!
We had stuffed green peppers for dinner tonight - and since the peppers were willing to tell him all their secrets, he went to town!
Friday, September 5, 2008
Other than intended
Monday, August 25, 2008
Will is as busy as ever. He walks everywhere with little fear of falling. He often walks up and down stairs holding onto the spindles. It scares me to death! Will also loves to carry things around. Often, the objects are as big as he is. He also enjoys talking on the phone (pretend of course). If you say "Hello?" he holds up his hand to his ear and babbles back to you. He is growing so fast, I can hardly take a breath before he is learning something new. Enjoy the pictures.
Yep, he found the toilet paper!
Ha! He stuck his tongue out.
He did this all by himself.
This jumping ball is one of his favorite things to carry around.
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Something I don't talk about much
Something I don't talk about much is Adam Kanaszyc. Most of you know that he took his own life a few years ago in a rather dramatic fashion and it was a tough time for me. I did what I normally do in emotional situations and detached myself as much as possible. As I looking back at that time I have just started realizing how much growing up I did in those few short weeks.
Several weeks before Adam's death, he and I had a blowout argument. I was doing what I thought was right in a very complicated situation and he didn't agree with me. It came to a head and really put a strain on our friendship. After that, I was still committed to his friendship and we had made amends from that argument, but I don't think we ever really got the chance to fully heal from that. The toughest thing was calling out a friend, even in love, and intentionally causing strife.
That's what I thought until I got the call from Lucyna and had to call all our closest friends and break the news. As guys, we don't share our feelings much, and the different reactions I got from people gave me insight into them that I had never seen before. As I said before, I disconnected myself and just did what needed to be done through the following days and weeks. Krista even tried to talk to me about it and I just wasn't in a place where I could.
Several months later on the way home from work, I just broke down. No good reason, he just came to mind and I couldn't distance myself from it. I didn't appreciate the impact it had on me until after that drive home and maybe it's taken until now, really, to appreciate the impact on my life.
I don't really know why I'm posting this except to know that I've gone over it in my head a few thousand times and I just needed to get it down on 'paper'. Who knows, maybe that's part of the healing process and maybe I actually am moving on from it. September gets close each year and I start thinking about him, his birthday (9/11), and of course the events of 9/11 and how they're all kind of connected for me.
I've learned that in life, you do what you need to do to get by. I think we each have our own mechanisms for doing that and whether they're conscious or not is irrelevent. I know that his life made the problems of drugs and addictions so much more personal and I wonder how many of my friends, family, and co-workers have little exposure to those things. The impact of those have really realigned my priorities in what we teach Will and how I may (hopefully not) deal with those topics when the need arises.
Don't know why this all matters, just to say that he was a great friend and I miss him. I hope Jon and Maureen read this at some point too and can understand what I'm saying at some level.
Several weeks before Adam's death, he and I had a blowout argument. I was doing what I thought was right in a very complicated situation and he didn't agree with me. It came to a head and really put a strain on our friendship. After that, I was still committed to his friendship and we had made amends from that argument, but I don't think we ever really got the chance to fully heal from that. The toughest thing was calling out a friend, even in love, and intentionally causing strife.
That's what I thought until I got the call from Lucyna and had to call all our closest friends and break the news. As guys, we don't share our feelings much, and the different reactions I got from people gave me insight into them that I had never seen before. As I said before, I disconnected myself and just did what needed to be done through the following days and weeks. Krista even tried to talk to me about it and I just wasn't in a place where I could.
Several months later on the way home from work, I just broke down. No good reason, he just came to mind and I couldn't distance myself from it. I didn't appreciate the impact it had on me until after that drive home and maybe it's taken until now, really, to appreciate the impact on my life.
I don't really know why I'm posting this except to know that I've gone over it in my head a few thousand times and I just needed to get it down on 'paper'. Who knows, maybe that's part of the healing process and maybe I actually am moving on from it. September gets close each year and I start thinking about him, his birthday (9/11), and of course the events of 9/11 and how they're all kind of connected for me.
I've learned that in life, you do what you need to do to get by. I think we each have our own mechanisms for doing that and whether they're conscious or not is irrelevent. I know that his life made the problems of drugs and addictions so much more personal and I wonder how many of my friends, family, and co-workers have little exposure to those things. The impact of those have really realigned my priorities in what we teach Will and how I may (hopefully not) deal with those topics when the need arises.
Don't know why this all matters, just to say that he was a great friend and I miss him. I hope Jon and Maureen read this at some point too and can understand what I'm saying at some level.
Monday, August 11, 2008
Back from Arkansas
Yeah - we're unfortunately back. We had a great time as usual and Will actually did pretty well. He went down with an ear infection that was bothering him but once that cleared itself up, he did OK. There's lots of pictures up at www.pankaus.com if you're bored and are interested.
We ran into some boat trouble at the last second and had to swim the boat on to the trailer since we couldn't get it to run in gear. Something wrong with the lower unit we suspect - it's in the shop now getting looked at. Hopefully it's back an running by this weekend so we don't have to cancel our plans.
Unless something drastic happens, I think we'll be going back for a quite a few years!
We ran into some boat trouble at the last second and had to swim the boat on to the trailer since we couldn't get it to run in gear. Something wrong with the lower unit we suspect - it's in the shop now getting looked at. Hopefully it's back an running by this weekend so we don't have to cancel our plans.
Unless something drastic happens, I think we'll be going back for a quite a few years!
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